All the depression nonsense i've been engaging with while depressed

you want some "reality tv"? well the reality is that I'm very sad

Hello friends! hello fans! (my mum) hello family! (my mum). I have to admit i am using those exclamation marks in a fraudulent manner, as I don’t particularly feel exclamation mark-y at the moment. I have been experiencing depression on and off since about September last year, and having a particularly tough few months. I am talking so much about it because I have never experienced it to this extent before, and it’s probably annoying because I am late in the game, but I do just…fully get it now. I’ve hard hard and rough times and anxiety and sadness and I’ve just been able to push through, but this time I couldn’t. Anyway I know people have been talking about this shit for decades, and as someone who has almost exclusively dated people with mental health issues, and has many many friends in the same boat (i am queer after all), I have really seen it all. I’ve tried to support where I can, and empathise as much as possible, but there is no way I could have fully understood the feeling of it until it happened.